scream hollering

Today was the first day back to work after the second snow storm. (I had worked Monday.) It felt so good to be back in my seat!! Back at work!! I worked and worked and worked - because I had work. :) It felt good to have my head phones on and something that took some thinking to finish.

I noticed my boss kept walking by but I didn't think anything of it. Until he whispered to me to come with him for a second. I got up and went with him without even stopping to put my shoes on.

Seems the new project manager thinks I have the wrong attitude. Although Roger wouldn't say that word. So I guess I'm not really sure what the new project manager thinks. I get the feeling he thinks I'm subverting the whole team. I admitted to two things. One, the nasty email (which you wouldn't know was nasty because it was only two sentences) and the other to saying, rather loudly, that I can't work on Courtney's project because Mike doesn't think I'm smart enough. Two small things. After a whole pile of things he has done. The thing that makes me the maddest is how he is acting like I do not work. I'll admit my attitude towards him has soured but my work has never soured or slowed down. I enjoy work - love it even.

All I do is work!

All of us do actually. Our drafting team is always sitting at their desks. We are all working. We aren't up socializing or talking on the phone.

The new project managers micromanaging is hurting our team. He's hurting our moral. (Unsure of how to spell that word.) He is making it so that even I'm unsure of what I am allowed to do and what I'm not allowed to do.

The only reason I don't jump ship and go to another project is I love AEP. I love how they are set up and I love my co-workers.

However, he is the new project manager. He is worth more than I am. We do need to keep him happy. If that means me moving to another project - so be it.

Oh, California did call. They called me on Monday and said that the pay would be around $15,000 more than I make now in base pay to move there. ('Around', because an offer wasn't made - just gave me an idea of what the general increase would be.)

The only thing stopping me is my children/grandchildren. Being so far away would be hard. They need me. :)

Plus, these knees do need replaced.

I would miss my bible study group sooooo much.

But the idea of living in a place were the weather is so nice. And the adventure of starting all over again. Two reasons why I still consider the move.

After all, the kids are moving. I won't be seeing them that often. Plus they don't really need me.

I've always felt the pull of California and I have never known why to be honest with you.

Charlotte said that I would just be running away. At first I didn't believe her but the more I think about it - it's true. Running away from people who don't appreciate me. The problem with that is - will the new people appreciate me anymore? I strongly doubt it. It's the way of the world. Female, aging . . . not a good combo in this world.

When I walked into the house. I walked straight over to the table with my bible. It was opened to this verse, the one talking about humbling yourself.

Sometimes God just shouts.