life

I’m sitting here at work and a feeling of gratitude just swept over me. My son stays with me during the week. His family lives in another small town and he isn’t able to find a job there so he has to stay here, where his job is, during the week and he returns to his family during the weekends. His stay is soothing my soul and repairing our relationship. God is good to have allowed this time. 

Michael and I got lost somewhere during his teenage years. Then his teenage years turned into his twenties. By lost, I mean, I didn’t leave him, I was always available to him, but he stayed away, and I gave him space, because he always seemed so angry, and I knew that he needed to find his own way. At least I thought I knew this. I had decided that he was like me, and that meant I needed to back off, so that he could think things through on his own. Now I'm not so sure and this is why I am glad we have this time together. I know he would prefer to be with his boys and in his home but he has to make money so that the bills can be paid. 

Well, he’s going through hell because his wife has these times where she goes off the deep end. She loses touch with reality basically and starts thinking people are against her. She starts fighting and starts making up stories. A good example is when we were all standing there and she turned to me and said, ‘Did you see that? He hit me!’ Michael was in the yard and not near her.

She’s abusive and controlling all the time. I often say that if she were a man that she would be in jail because she is an abuser to husband, to her children, to her mother and the rest of that family and to us; although, Michael’s side of the family can avoid her for the most part. She should be locked up during the worst of her times (like now) and I do worry for the safety of the boys. Not to mention their mental health all the time. I pray and pray and pray for their protection. I pray for her mind to be healed. Having your mind turn against you has the be the worst illness to have. 

Michael has so much stress in his life. I admire his strength to be able to follow through with his marriage vows - in sickness and in health. Her healthy days are few and far between. Only God can heal her and keep these boys safe from harm.