waking

This morning I had a bad experience as I was trying to wake up. I don't know how common this is but I felt someone standing over me but I couldn't open my eyes and I couldn't speak and I felt pressed down. So I prayed. I remember hearing, inside my head, that 'praying isn't going to help you'. I said, "Greater is He that is in me than he that is in the world." Then I heard that 'you don't have the Holy Spirit'. That scared me for a split second because doubts crept in but still I said that "I do have the Holy Spirit, God is with me, Jesus is with me." The voice inside my head said 'how do you know'. My answer was because I have faith. I believe, better than that, I KNOW that Gods word is true.

This morning I get to work and as I am glancing through Facebook I come across this picture and my face and my heart just lights up.

God is good. 

This darkness and feeling of paralysis happened a couple of times this morning until I had the sense to get out of bed. I remember that this used to happen to me quite a bit. I don't want it to start again.


UPDATE: I just searched to see what my symptoms mean. (I would hate to be having stroke symptoms and not be paying attention.) Sleep paralysis. There, I have a diagnosis. This is a common thing that can happen as you fall asleep or as you wake. I've had it happen at both times. I'm lucky like this. One person said that some people have found that if you wiggle your toes or fingers that you come out of it quicker. From what I can remember I can't wiggle anything! It's a quite scary feeling.