evil

Talk about a struggle. Having someone in your close circle who has a mental illness (this is one time when I hope it is a mental illness because I hate to think she is naturally this evil). No matter how hard I try, she has knocked me off of my center.

For instance, sitting in Adult Study at church and I made the mistake of looking at my phone and seeing her text. She starts in with her evil rot and very soon, instead of enjoying my time with God, I am in turmoil and in a black swirling pit of despair and hatred. I can't just walk out of it either.

Lindsay just called and told me about what she is doing to her brother-in-laws girlfriend. You read that right. Since she can't get to us she is starting to go out into broader circles with her swirling hate. Now Lindsay is upset along with her husbands family.

Yesterday Mendy tells me of some of what Mary had written to her in emails and she mentioned some of what Staci has read on Facebook. Mary has affected my relationship with my own sisters. Lies do impact people - even when all of you know they are lies!

When I think of what those boys are having to live through my blood runs cold. Christian has been hospitalized and we know for a fact that it is his Mother that should be in the hospital and not Christian.

I found an article that mentions how it is a seasonal disorder with the author. It is obviously this way with Mary too. It isn't fair that one person can wreak this much havoc within a family. She should not be allowed to do this to her own children and to my son and daughter and to my family. (It isn't just at Christmas. Mary does this several times throughout the year. They used to be farther apart but they are almost becoming continuous.)

http://psychcentral.com/lib/how-family-and-friends-can-aid-mental-health-recovery 

Mary's family isn't helping at all. I sent a simple email asking if I could take my presents for the boys to Linda's house so that I could know they would get their presents. No reply from Linda.

Once again Christmas is ruined for the boys and for Michael and for us.

Please pray.