Yesterday as I was driving to work I saw Robbie. He was sitting right next to Burger King. That small voice in me said stop and buy him breakfast. The larger voice in me, the one in my stomach, said NO head on down the road because you are in the mood for a bagel. Now, it is below 30 degrees and this man has no legs. He is in a wheelchair and he lives outside but I couldn't stop because I wanted a bagel. I wasn't hungry mind you. I just wanted a bagel and cream cheese.
That small voice didn't stop. Oh, maybe it stopped but the conscience, man it did not stop. Lunchtime came and I thought that I should head over Robbie's way and buy him lunch. My stomach said NO, I want Cheesecake Factory. After all you have that gift certificate and the free slice certificate. So, I didn't buy Robbie lunch.
Heading home after work Robbie was along Blue Ridge again. He was even on my side of the road. That little voice started to say 'buy Robbie supper' but it didn't even finish the sentence. It knew that I would go home.
Later that night, in my comfortable bed, I prayed for God to forgive me.
This morning the very first thing I read upon waking was this post.
https://www.facebook.com/TheUprisingTulsa/photos/a.183026765116151.46847.182574681828026/1261580050594145/?type=3&theater
Getting ready for work today I was praying for Robbie to be by Burger King. Driving into work I searched for him along his normal route . . . no Robbie.
Right after the post from Father Richard was another post stating that when we hear God's voice we need to obey immediately.
Obey God and leave all the consequences to Him.
Charles F. Stanley
I know the Holy Spirit is speaking to me (understatement). I am listening. I just pray that Robbie is still here so that I can feed him and talk with him and comfort him in whatever ways he will let me. And I pray God forgives me. I just keep seeing the scripture about the beggar and the rich man and I know which one I am in this case . . . God please protect Robbie. Please heal Robbie. God please forgive me.
UPDATE
The girls from work and I came to my neighborhood at lunch to see if we could find him. We were going to see if he would join us for lunch - hoping he could warm up. We did not see him. However, as I was driving home I did see him. I couldn't get over because traffic was too high but I did come back around a couple of hours later after I picked up some blankets, water, and a Happy Meal. There was a pretty 20 something lady standing beside him talking with him when I pulled up. There was not even a hint of sadness in his entire being :) He said he did not need blankets, or water, or food. He did need a new place to sleep. The ladies at the bank said he had to move. So I plan on stopping by places that he can easily get to and asking them if he could sleep there. He also requested a tent.
As I left him I felt as if I was glowing. Robbie seemed strong and happy and pleasant. God blessed me and I think He is showing me that obeying Him is not onerous - it is the complete opposite.
Now, how to figure out how to help Robbie. God surely loves Robbie because of all the people who seem to care for him.
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