Good Friday

Woke up around 4am. I was in the middle of a nightmare. I had gotten caught in the middle of something that involved a lot of guns and people arguing. I was with another person who was smaller than me. I don't know if it was my daughter or a friend but I knew that I didn't want them to be hurt. The people with guns were arguing and we saw our chance to hopefully move away from the situation but someone else came up out of nowhere with a gun aimed at us. I realized that we were dying for nothing and I couldn't protect her. Then I woke up. I pray when I wake up. In this case, I started praying for my family to be Saved, and to be kept safe from sin and from harm.

Then I realized that today was Good Friday. Then I wondered if this was about the time that Jesus was in the Garden alone. His Disciples asleep when they should have been praying. I could see Jesus there in my mind. I went to pray for Him and then I realized that I didn't know how to pray for Him. My mind went back to when Jesus rebuked Peter. Jesus was telling the Disciples what was about to happen and Peter said, "No Lord." And Jesus told Peter "get behind me satan".

See, if I pray that what was going to happen would stop - then what happens to all of us?!? A lot of time passes where I am asking the Holy Spirit to give me words to pray. He must have reminded me of how to pray for a family member because I asked God to give Jesus strength and then my Mother's mind went to asking God for peace and calmness for Jesus. So that He could endure and finish what He had to go through.  And I thank Jesus. The son of man. I mean, how could He endure what was happening? It was because He is God and He is man. God loves us that much to do this. 

What Jesus did for us . . . there aren't enough words. And God, that was His Son He was watching that was going through hell. All the fury that men could dish out was being done to Jesus. God was watching that happen to His Son. Tell me, what Dad that you know who could watch that? God created us. He could end us all. How did God not just end us?!? How does He still not end this world?!? That Psalm that speaks of 'what is man that you care for us'. Comes into my mind.

Today is Good Friday and my heart is so heavy and sad.


Tis Midnight, And On Olive's Brow

"Tis midnight, and on Olive's brow
  The star is dimmed that lately shone;
'Tis midnight in the garden now,
  The suff'ring Savior prays alone. 

'Tis midnight, and from all removed,
  The Savior wrestles lone with fears-
E'en that disciple whom He loved
  Heeds not his Master's grief and tears. 

'Tis midnight, and for other's guilt
  The Man of Sorrows weeps in blood;
Yet He that hath in anguish knelt
  Is not forsaken by His God. 

'Tis midnight, and from ether-plains
  Is borne the song that angels know
Unheard by mortals are the strains
  That sweetly soothe the Savior's woe.

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