June 12

Today started out, well, I should have just stayed in bed!

Harriet and Scout woke me up at 4:45 am with excited barking. The kind where they are chasing a rabbit through the yard, and while I am happy that they are happy, I was not happy that it was happening that early in the morning. I tell myself that it is ok. They woke me up at 5 am but I can pee and then I won't have to wake up at 6 or 7 . . . I can sleep in. Riiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiight. That didn't happen. You see, to keep them from continuing to bark I separated them by closing the door to my bedroom so that only Scout was in bed with me. Normally Harriet is okay with that because she sleeps in Richards room. This morning though Harriet wasn't happy about it. She kept scratching at our door until I get up and let her in. To make a long story a bit shorter, I didn't get to sleep in late this morning.

I want to go to church BUT I promised Gilbert I would have his drawings done Monday morning. So I'm debating on whether to go to work or go to church. I leave to do one or the other and when I get to the truck door . . . it is locked. The keys are in the ignition and I don't have a spare key anywhere.

To make matters worse, yesterday I left to go have breakfast and I also ended up staying in the casino to lose $400. I didn't have $400 to lose. So now, I am $414 short because of my gambling addiction and about to be even shorter because I have to pay a locksmith to come get my truck door unlocked.

Yesterday, I went to Mendy's to celebrate Mia's birthday. Mendy started talking about an email that I forwarded her from work about LinkedIn. From there the conversation went to how Burns & McDonnell sent out an email telling us to take any religion off of Facebook and other social networks if we have the names Burns & McDonnell showing. Sharon said, "well, you understand why don't you". I told her I didn't. Facebook is my place where I go to talk about what is important to me. I removed Burns & McDonnell from Facebook. That whole conversation got me to thinking about denying God and what is important.

To me, God is first. Then family and then work. I almost wish I didn't put work third because it is still too high of placement for something. What's worse is that work takes up most all of my time and my thought. That's just wrong! Talk about serving two masters. Between my love of gambling and my love of work I'm beginning to think I'm deceiving myself about what is most important. Don't get me wrong. God is most important and should be most important. It's just that time is proving that money is most important.